That I need to let go of a dream onto which I’ve held too tightly for too long.
Part one is obvious to anybody who reads this blog 😉 and, I do assure you, I have made valiant, continued efforts to have a real life outside of virtual reality and virtual worlds! But part two is something I only realized today, after some quiet thought over my lunch break.
There is a category of my blog called Adventures in Virtual Fashion Design, where I posted about my learning how to use Marvelous Designer to create avatar clothing in Sansar, and where I shared my dream: to become a virtual fashion designer and own and run my own store, my own brand, and be able to make a little side income to supplement my pension when I retire. A creative outlet. A hobby. Maybe even a tiny fashion empire like those I had seen people build in Second Life!
Today, I realized that one of the reasons I got so upset over the changes to the default female avatar in Sansar is that it would mean that I would need to remake all the clothing that I had already created and put up for sale in my store on the Sansar Store. And frankly, it has been so long since I taught myself how to do all that work in Marvelous Designer, that I’d forgotten almost all of it, and would need to start all over again.
You need to keep working on a skill to strengthen it, and I had let that particular set of skills wither, as I worked on my paying job during the work week, and as I worked on this blog and the Metaverse Newscast in the evenings and on weekends. And I discovered that I was good at those things! Perhaps better at those things, than I would be if I were to take up avatar fashion design again (although of course you never know).
So, reluctantly, I will shutting down my store today, and taking all my avatar clothing items off the market, except for one. I don’t want to offer clothing items that were designed for avatars that no longer exist, and I don’t want people to have to fuss and fiddle with my clothing to make it fit Avatar 2.0 avatars. So it’s all coming down. I did get a small thrill every time I sold an item, though, and every time I saw someone in-world wearing a T-shirt or a dress I made!
I don’t know when I will be able to resume work on this project. I might wait until Linden Lab finalizes the body morphing on the current Sansar avatars, which is supposed to happen within the next four to six months, according to Landon Linden. Or I might wait until I take full retirement from my paying job and I have more time. We’ll see.
But I do know that it’s time for me to let go of my dream, as least for now.
I haven’t done a Sansar fashion blogpost for quite a while, so I thought I’d show off a look I put together for Sansar supermodel Vanity Fair. Once I saw this jacket for sale on the Sansar Store, I knew I had to have it!
I love the military styling, the draped chain details and the metallic shoulders; it totally reminds me of something Michael Jackson would wear! So I paired it with a few other items already in my inventory, and behold! My red, gold, and black look was complete!
Hair: One of the default female hairstyles from the Sansar inventory (also free)
TOTAL COST OF THIS OUTFIT: S$635
(Photo 1 was taken in the redesigned Sansar Lookbook, photos 2 and 3 were taken at Katylina’s Crazy Club Red, photo 4 was taken at Elvenmade’s Tannhäuser Gate Bar, and photos 5 and 6 were taken at Sansar Studios’ own Zen Garden.)